Ever since I was little, and pretending to be a mommy to my babies, everyone always told me, "Don't grow up to fast. Enjoy it." I always thought they were so stupid. Telling me not to grow up to fast, not rush it, it'll be here soon enough. How can I not look ahead into my future? How can I not plan out my life?
Pretty much my whole life has been a countdown to the next big thing coming up.
Countdown to the New Year
Countdown to Mom's birthday
Countdown to my birthday
Countdown to Jake's birthday
Countdown to Dad's birthday
Countdown to Christmas
then the cycle starts all over again.
I was counting down to my 15'th birthday, since it was 102 days away. I wasn't counting down because I was so excited to be 15 (Don't get me wrong, I was) but I was counting down, just to start another countdown. After my 15'th birthday, I just started another countdown, to the day I get to drive. And after that countdown is over, it'll just be another countdown, to the day that I'm 16. Then another, to the day that I turn 17. Then another, and another, and another.
I just realized, everyone that said not to rush it............Well.......They were right.. Time goes by so fast. Kids grow up in the blink of an eye. One day someone's there, and then the next, they're gone. I was thinking, I kinda wish I lived in Never Land, with Peter Pan. No worries of getting older. Fun with friends every day. Stay a kid forever.
Now I know that will never happen, but I can choose to live like everyday is my last. And, you know what, I think I will. So, no more countdowns. I'll still get excited when a big occasion comes around, but I won't spend all my time thinking about it.
So, what do you say?
Stay forever young with me?
